I was reading an article and those three words..
Really resonated with me.
I know I fear…at times… being successful in this journey.
It sounds crazy but success brings about change and that can be difficult for me. It can bring new responsibilities new opportunities, ones that may require me to step out of my comfort box. That scares the life out of me and that is when I see myself sabotaging my efforts to get to my goal.
Of course if I could recognize what I am doing in the midst it would be so much easier to stop myself before I do too much damage.
Unfortunately that has not been the case.
To be completely honest with myself I have allowed my efforts to gain my health and lose this excess weight to go on the sidelines for about the last year, sabotaging all the strides in healthy eating and a healthy lifestyle I had made up to that point. All to the tune of almost a 40 pound regain.
When I initially stepped back on the scale after quite sometime all I could do was cry. I knew I had gained a bit, I can see it, I can feel it in my clothes, I can feel it as I move, but to see that number devastated me.
It took me a bit to get my head around the fact it is ok…I just need to regroup…refocus and lose the regain!
I did it once before…I can do it again!
Yesterday was pretty successful.
Take it one day at a time.
Remember I still have lost more than 100 pounds and still have it off.
I am not this person anymore…
This was me then…
This is me now…
Not at my goal, but definitely on my way to it again!
Not giving up!