Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Love Hate Relationships

Do you have any of those?

I think I have more than anyone person should have but it is what it is.

One is with my job. I love having a job and the company itself. I hate a few aspects of my job though. The ungodly amount of driving I do for one. I drive close to 1,000 miles a week, my poor car! I think she may be getting ready to need retirement. The upside of driving with my job is I can route myself for the most part where I want for that particular day or rearrange my routed schedule due to weather or personal appointments, as I did yesterday and Monday.

4 1/2 years ago I had weight loss surgery that for the most part has been successful and have...up to my last visit...had no side effects.

For that I am extremely thankful as I know there are a vast amount of possible issues that can arise after weight loss surgery.

For me I was healthy prior to surgery just severely obese. In fact I remember being concerned my insurance would turn me down because of not having any health issues. So what is going on? Well my iron was really really low. I have a top notch bariatric team that do not mess around. See I was not classified as anemic but rather my storehouse was almost depleted. I had a measure of 9...the normal range is between 20 - 30 but given I will not accept any blood if the need arose they want it to be closer to 50.

I first visited with the head of the department of the Anemia Clinic for a consult. He was great at explaining and answering my questions.

Things like have you noticed brittle hair, dry skin, divets in your nails, tiredness among other things?






OK let's do this!

Then a long 3 hours of siting with an IV in my arm having iron being pumped into my veins.

My daughter The Geekanista sent me this that she found...

I may or may not have a secret love for RDJ. Quite fitting in her opinion! =)

So a long day where I am hoping to feel better soon. The crazy thing is I attributed how I have been feeling to my crazy sleep cycles and stress where in actuality that also could be a side effect to what is going on with my low iron issue!

No issues having the infusion though there is a possibility I may feel like I got hit by a Mack truck in the morning. Hopefully not but there is the possibility.

So another love hate relationship now is with my wls. I love I had it and the success thus far I have experienced, I hate the possible issues that could arise from it and that I am now experiencing due to the malabsorption. This though in the big picture is a tiny pixel.

What love/hate relationships do you have?

Monday, January 23, 2017

Happy Pie Day

Oh it is National Pie Day!

So do you know who made the very first Pie?

History shows that pies are traced back to the Egyptians! They used oat, wheat rye and barley to make the crusts ad filled them with honey, then baked it over hot coals. A little later pharaohs bakers added nuts and fruits to the honey in a bread dough.

The pie continued on with the Greeks where it is thought that they actually created the actual pie pastry. They used a flour water paste they wrapped around meat to seal those flavorful juices in.

Then we see the Romans bringing this tradition home with them where they used all types of meat puddings in the shells as well as a dessert filling. The Romans are also credited with the first written pie recipe.

So thank you to the Egyptians for what today is so good!

We have dessert pies like my fave...Pumpkin Pie

TIP: This is my high protein pumpkin pie that I make without crust for me and with crust for my kids to enjoy.

We have savory meal type pies like Chicken Pot Pie

All starting with the pie crust.

Who we do!

What is your favorite type of pie?

Friday, January 20, 2017

You Don't Know Me

Happy Friday and welcome to the start of the weekend.

I really need this work down time with my kids.

I love my job, I really do...for the most part. As my supervisors says I sell smiles, and I HATE sales, always have but it is not too difficult to sell chocolate to small stores. The new territory that started this year is absolutely ridiculous though. From furthest northern to furthest southern is a distance of 189 miles not including all the roads and multiple stores winding in between. So as much as I love it I am polishing up my resume and getting on the look to find something new.

Speaking of new I saw this yesterday:

This Is awesome and so true. Many that knew me over the past 15 or so years do not really know me anymore because I lost who I was not long after I got married. I really did not like who I had become either. I LOVE who I becoming again. I am more like the much younger me than ever. Ironically it is who my ex says he fell in love with, but then worked at changing me, though am pretty sure it was not on a conscious level. He was unhappy with him so wanted me to change thinking it was me making him unhappy. Whatever it was it is in my past and I am at peace finally again moving on.

I am unhappy with the weight I have put back on this past year but it is time I am getting my head back to where it needs to be.

Selling chocolate is not a great fit for someone trying to live a healthier life either. I have it around my my car ALL.THE.TIME!

I would love to find something to do at home, driving. Those jobs seem to be far and few between though. But I will look. Who knows maybe I will strike gold.

I will have sometime when I have my iron infusion....3 hours to work on resume and look for work, but that won't be until the end of the month so in the meantime I will make time to start that process.

I turn to God's word for strength and wisdom in this change.

Hebrews 4:12 states "The word of God is alive and exerts power."

He has certainly never disappointed me or abandoned me in my time of need. I find myself in need need of a change and with His help I will find a good fit for me and my kids, something that works with our crazy life and supports the things we need.

Today I move ever forward.

What plans do you have for this weekend? Anything exciting?

Thursday, January 19, 2017

What To DO?

Waking to yet another fresh coat of the white stuff this morning.

Yes it is beautiful but as I said yesterday it is not fun to drive in.

I am hearing the snow plow trucks out taking care of the I do live in more of a city setting though and I drive today to extremely rural areas where that may not be the case....thus the extreme stress for this morning.

Yes we are making up for the past year when we had a pretty mild winter.

My issue. The biggest thing I am stressing about. Is all the driving I do with my job.

This is  fold because in May my job ends anyway. The company I work for lost the contract of the client I work under on a great team so all our jobs go away at the end of May. Of course when this happens people panic jump ship and the remainder of the contract goes unfulfilled for the client so we are being offered a descent retention bonus. I had all intentions of staying to the end until the new routing came out and the upper management has made my life more stressful with the distance and amount of stores they placed in my territory.

In great driving conditions it would be a bit stressful but in the weather we have been getting and as unpredictable many areas I drive to if the roads are going to be in descent shape and safe has compiled it so I am truly rethinking if it is worth staying on. There is a bonus to make our numbers involved as well and I already know they have created an impossible situation for me and it would be a miracle if I were to make those numbers.

So I am at a quandary of should I stay or should I go?

Writing sometimes helps me see things. I write....then read in a few days and the answer then seems so clear.

Does that happen to you?

My life over the pas couple years has been filled with many many changes. Some very good, some very bad.

When decisions have arisen, especially big ones I have and will continue to rely on prayer, the direction received. To get an answer requires specifics. That is truly what my issue is. Thinking of a specific to pray for to see the answer.

I know what I want. That may not be necessarily the best thing for me, for my kids.

At Judges 13:8 is states "Instruct us about what we should do."

This is what I am working on. Allowing myself to continue to be instructed by God and directed by his will not mine.

One day at a time.

For now I am off to get ready to beat the streets again and make a difference where I can.

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

A Day in the LIFE>>>>

Happy Wednesday everyone. I hope your week has been a great one so far.

It has been a real winter so far here in New England. Bittersweet for me.

I think it is beautiful when it snows, just not when I need to work as most of my job is on the road driving and I have seen my fair share of mangled cars along my drives due to road conditions.

Just a small bit of snow...more arriving as I speak...err type.

Yesterday was pretty good. Clear roads, sunny skies, relatively warm.

Today will be nothing like it.

The day of daily eats was pretty good too.

Daily Eats

Breakfast...same as each day, just maybe a different protein shake added.

This is one of my absolute faves...

GNC Lean shake Pumpkin! MMMMMM

Then I hit the road.

I knew I was going to be working in an area that I could swing through one of my fave spots....


To grab my lunch.

I have been wanting to try these since I got the email on them:

Sous Vide Egg Bites:

Bacon & Gruyere

They are REALLY good! The link above brings you to the page with NI on the Starbucks website....not an affiliate link, just sharing.

Well what is a drive through Starbucks and not get something to drink.

A hot Steamer made with SF vanilla and skim. Hits the spot all warm and frothy....30 minutes after I am done eating for those who follow the 30/30/30 I do.

I got home a bit late so dinner was going to be late.

That is ok a quick appetizer plate to share with kiddos as dinner is cooking....

Dinner was really good. In fact it is a hot in our house.

Trish's Italian Meatloaf, cauliflower mash and steamed kale.

I LOVE these meatloaves. So much flavor. I make them in this pan so they are in individual servings and I can easily make ahead meals for us.

Perfect sized!

My life is on the stressful side right now.  I am very thankful for those in my life and my faith though, without them I would be a complete wreck. I am leaning on this scripture currently to help my mental outlook:

Psalms 97:10~

He is guarding the lives of his loyal ones;

he rescues them from the hand of the wicked.

Is there something that helps you get through the stressful times?

Saturday, January 14, 2017

4 Year Post Op Follow Up

Crazy it has been 4 years already!

My life, I have changed so much over these 4 years.

Four years ago I was married.

Four years ago I weighed well over 300 pounds!

Four years ago I did not recognize the person I had become.

Four years ago I did not like me.

Four years ago I had no self confidence.


This is the 4 year difference. I am technically 4 1/2 years out but my appointments have been a bit off.

July 5, 2012 my life changed....

For the better all around.

This past year has been a struggle. I have found old coping mechanisms kicking back in with a vengeance.

I found myself missing being married and started filling that "feeling" with food...old habits have a way of rearing their ugly head!

I still have lost and kept off 125 pounds, BUT, yes I know no BUT....But I have gained 25 back this past year.

Grazing is my enemy.

It was very good timing to see my bariatric team.

First I now see why I have been so tired lately.

Why my moods have been off the wall at times.

I attributed it to my bad eating habits that have returned. While indeed I am sure that was a contributor, there is actually medical reason to why I have been feeling the way I have been feeling.

No surprise with this one... I am vitamin D deficient. I live in New England and it can be a challenge to get enough vitamin D naturally never mind that I have an altered digestive track so I do not absorb all my nutrients I eat to boot.

OK makes sense....prescription strength Vitamin D prescribed. CHECK

Then I find out I am severely anemic! Say what?! OK....THAT explains me being tired.....the hair thinning nails looking weird to me! WOW! OK.

Did my eating habits contribute? Probably. Whatever the reason I need to see a specialist to get my levels up.

Waiting on that appointment to be made.

Now....the eating that has gotten out of control. Ugh. This is so irritating to me! I had done really well and now I think WHY DID I ALLOW MYSELF TO GET HERE!?

So I am seeing my nutritionist to get a plan to get myself back on track.

It is a mind reset that I want. I know the deficiencies have an impact on my mental outlook and energy levels so it will be good to get those back to where they need to be and in the meantime I have an 8 week plan to get myself back on track on on the losers bench again....on my way to reach my goal.

Do you have your blood work done regularly regardless if you are a weight loss surgery post op or not?

Sunday, January 8, 2017

It's Italian

I love food.

Which is partially why I gained so much weight over my life.

I have not made meatloaf in a long time and I was needing to make something that would be good to bring to a friend who is recouping from surgery. Then I thought...


SO I got out my old recipes and a new one was born.

I gathered my ingredients and added them to a bowl.

TIP: I hate mixing meat with my hands...It is a texture thing. So I always keep a box of disposable gloves in my kitchen.

Here is the one I made for my friend after the all mixed up.

For our house I use one of these...

TIP: I am all about portion control to get myself back on track.

This baking dish is just the thing to use. Perfect sized little meatloaves. When first eating solids after surgery you may only be able to eat 1/2 of a "loaf".

I then make my topping glaze.

Very simple 2 ingredient glaze.

Then I topped the loaves.

 T’s Italian Meat Loaf

16 servings

16 oz ground turkey
16 oz ground sweet italian turkey sausage
1c oats
1 egg
1 c milk of choice
1 medium onion, diced
1 bell pepper, diced
1t sea salt
1/4t ground pepper
10oz can tomato soup
1t italian seasoning
For glaze:
2T Dijon mustard
1/2c lo/no sugar ketchup

Preheat oven to 350
Add all ingredients other the 2 for the glaze in a bowl.
Mix well.
Place into pans.
Put glaze ingredients in a small bowl and mix.
Top loaves with glaze.
Put in oven and cook for 60 min or until cooked through.

I hope you enjoy this as much as we did.

What kind of meals do you take to those who need a dish of love from time to time?

Saturday, January 7, 2017

I'm Not Going To Take It Anymore...Day

So apparently today is “I’m not going to take it anymore” day. Sort of fitting as I am NOT going to take it anymore!

What do you ask am I not taking anymore?

Ah thank you for asking!

I just will not take me beating myself up mentally for messing up anymore.

Nope I am not.

I would not dream of doing that to anyone, even someone I did not know but especially anyone I cared about even a little!

I need to learn to treat myself like my own friend. Someone I care about. It is not selfish, it is a necessity!

I am Worth it.

My kids are worth it.

The ones I love are worth it.

And it is ok to make a mistake….just learn from it, forgive and move on. That is what I would do if it were my child or a friend so I need to do this with me too.

So in view of this great day…


Are you with me?

Wednesday, January 4, 2017


The weather is ... well CRAZY!






More snow!

I am doing my best to like winter. It does have it's beauty but I LOVE warmth.

Winter rant done...for now.

Onto the daily eats…

Daily Eats

My mornings, especially in cold weather begin with my protein coffee.

Daily Eats |

My lunch was steak and cheese bomb...minus the bread and added a bit of sour cream.

I have been working on different recipes and revamping some I have to be a bit healthier, so I have to try them right?

Of course I do!

Here I give you...

Avocado Deviled Eggs

Dinner was great!

The kids loved it and my son was super excited when I told him I made an extra one for him for lunch the next day!

Trish's Shepherd's Pie

Doing my best to stay readjust MY thinking to enjoy all around me and work with what I have.

Keeping it simple!

With the Superbowl coming up next month are you planning a Superbowl party?

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

It's All In The Pie

I love pie!

Don't you?!

Pumpkin pie is probably on the top of my list of faves but I am not talking dessert pies today.

Today I am talking Shepherd's Pie. A warm savory goodness to serve for dinner or even lunch.

Tip Time: I Love using bell peppers in my recipes as serving dishes. As a rule a cup of food is the amount a bariatric patient will eventually be eating at each meal and peppers are pretty much natures 1 cup measuring cup. So when I can I use it and that is what I did with my shepherd's pie.

Hunt's has come up with a genius product!

I think most recipes I have ever used tomato paste in were 2T and this is so easy and pre-measured!

Loved it.

This recipe is awesome and I also use it with leftovers when I have made a roast beef or crockpot beef because I typically also make mashed potatoes with either of those meats. So this is a great leftover meal or use the ground beef and make it from scratch.

My son loves raw peppers but hates cooked so for him I used a small dish and did the same thing.

T’s Shepard Pie

For the Potatoes:
1 1/2 pounds potatoes, peeled and cubed
6 oz Greek yogurt, plain
1/2t sea salt
1/2 c shredded cheddar cheese
4 slices bacon

For the filling:
1 pound ground beef
1 medium onion, diced
2 small carrots. sliced
1 zucchini, diced or spiraled
8 oz sliced mushrooms
1/2T minced fresh garlic
2T tomato paste
1T Worcestershire sauce
1c Dark Ale beer
1/2 c sugar snap peas

To Make Potatoes:
Place potatoes in large pot and cover with water, Bring to a boil and cook for 30 minutes.
Drain and then mash with yogurt and sea salt. Set aside.

To Make Filling:
Preheat oven to 400.
Brown ground beef. Set aside.
Spray a sauté pan with cooing spray. Add onions, carrots, zucchini and mushrooms. Sauté for about 7 minutes. Add garlic and continue another 2 minutes.
Return beef to pan along with tomato paste, beer and Worcestershire sauce.
Bring to a boil then reduce heat to simmer. Simmer for 15 minutes. Add sugar snap peas and cook another 2 minutes.
Pour into 8x8 dish and top with mashed potatoes.
Bake for 20 minutes.
Remove from oven and top with cheese and bacon. Return to oven for another 5 minutes or until cheese is melted.
Remove from oven and allow to stand about 5 minutes.

The recipe directions are for a one dish dinner that you can divide after cooking, totally up to you how you want to make and serve it.

I hope you enjoy.

Until next time....keep cooking!

Monday, January 2, 2017

A Devilish Time

Welcome to a new Year....

A New week with so many opportunities to be the change you want to see in the world.

With the super bowl approaching I am working on recipes I might serve is I decide to have a Super Bowl Party this year....which I am seriously thinking about doing.

To stay inline with my goal to reach my goal weight by the end of 2017 though I need to be sure what I serve is not just bariatric friendly for me but also tasty enough to serve my friends and family.

So into test kitchen mode I go.

One thing that seems to always be a hot and they disappear pretty quick at parties and gatherings are deviled eggs. But I wanted to put a little twist to them.

Lately I have really enjoyed how about adding THAT to an egg dish?!

Hmmm adding the creamy goodness of avocado to deviled eggs? Sounds good to me!

Another thing I did was use a garlic mayonnaise.

This stuff is really good. Have you seen it? Tried it? What do you think?

A tip for new weight loss surgery peeps is get yourself and mini chopper.

I am serious! It saved me so many times, especially early in my journey after surgery. If something was too dry or I was having a hard time I would actually add it to this wonderful device and add something to moisten it up. I have actually had this for years. I would puree my kids food as babies and yes the initial weeks after surgery that is essentially the only  texture of food most can tolerate...Pureed foods.

Look at how smooth it made the egg mixture:

Clump free and smooth.

My kids loved these....

I LOVED these!

T’s Avocado Deviled Eggs

8 Hard Boiled Eggs
1 Ripe Avocado
2T Garlic Mayonnaise
1t Lime Juice
1/8t Sea Salt
4 Slices Cooked Crisped Bacon
Chili Powder

Slice eggs in half removing yolks and placing yolks in bowl.
Add the avocado, mayonnaise, lime juice and sea salt to mini chopper.
Pulse until smooth.
Place in plastic bag to pipe into egg whites.
Pipe into egg whites and top with bacon and chili powder.

So I fancied them up and we had this for dinner.

Why not right?

We are worth the effort to make things look a bit fancy for no reason at all.

Have a great day!

Until next time...Keep smiling! =)