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Saturday, December 31, 2016

I Bid You Adieu

Adieu 2016!

Adiós
Ciao
Good bye.
Vale…never to see you again.

2016 was a year of change.

2016 was a year of growth.

Not all being good.

I live by the quote.

“Change is inevitable….growth is optional.”

Winding up the old and getting ready to welcome in the new.

I am looking forward to more change this year….more positive change.

Making strides in my goals.

Finding more of the me that I lost for so many years.

So until next year…..

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Friday, December 30, 2016

Don't Go Bacon My Heart

Oh I LOVE Bacon!

I mean unless you are a vegetarian or Vegan what is there not to love? Am I right?!

Savory…Yummy Goodness!

So in light of it being Bacon day I will enjoy some yummy Bacon goodness.

Breakfast I might enjoy bacon and eggs.

Or my childhood comfy fave of soft boiled eggs mixed with bacon and my adult comfort addition of avocado.

Lunch could be corn chowder…oh this sounds so good! I think I definitely need to make this!

Or how about Bacon wrapped avocado!

There is nothing but goodness to this combo!

Dinner how does bacon wrapped chicken with loaded mashed potatoes sound???

And my kids really enjoy crescent wrapped cheese and bacon sammies.

Here are some other great sounding recipes I found that have bacon in the ingredients list.

I actually want to try them all!! How about you???

How do you Love YOUR bacon?

Thursday, December 29, 2016

Bringing Positivity

I truly try to stay positive despite what negative experiences I encounter.

It is just who I am and I know I really do drive some people crazy.

I mean I typically wake up happy and full of energy ready to face the day.

So when I do not wake like that I know there is an issue I need to address.

This is how it has been for months now.

It is time I heal.

I truly feel like what we fuel our body with directly effects our mind.

Impacting it for the good or the bad.

I am ending 2016 with the feeding y body of the not so good grab and go food I have allowed to come back into my life.

Weekly Menu Plan

I need to pay attention to this and make sure I keep a log of it.

I know from experience that this is true for me. I get …no I got into a rut for a while and I am no digging myself out.

I am worth the effort to feel better…emotionally and physically. My kids are worth the effort so I feel good about myself as well.

And I am not waiting for January 1st….I begin today!

How are you making YOU better?

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Last Week Of 2016

Welcome to the last week of 2016.

What a year it has been.

So much change personally.

So much that I have gained.

So much that I have lost.

So many memories made.

I am looking forward to 2017.

I look forward to making great changes....positive changes and continue the moving on in my life and the gaining back of the woman I am and was within.

One way is to get my eating back inline to help attain my goals in the health area.

So without further babbling today here is the last post of my Daily Eats

Daily Eats

My mornings are pretty routine and will stay the same until the warmer weather moved in and I will drink an iced protein drink of sorts, but for now it is my protein coffee.

Premier protein is definitely one of my fave choices. This added to my coffee tastes very close to a Mocha.

BUT my favorite Mocha is by far my Starbucks Skinny Peppermint Mocha.

My guilty pleasure indeed!

Lunch was something I LOVE too.

A soft boiled egg, on top of a piece of toast and added avocado and a slice of bacon.

A comfort food with added avocado from my childhood.

Until just a few years ago I had never had an avocado.

Yep I grew up in Florida, yet NEVER tried these amazing fruits all the years I lived there.

Oh all the years I missed enjoying these lovely things.

Ok...moving on.

I try to cook a large piece of meat on the weekend to use in lunches and quick dinners.

This past weekend I made a garlic crusted roast beef.

A quick leftover meal of creamed spinach mashed potatoes were great.

What do you do to help keep yourself on track with your goals?

Are you a planner or a "winger"?

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Not Eating My Emotions

I thought I had been doing so good emotionally after my divorce. I mean it has been some time now, a year and a half since it was final, though feels like a lot longer.

Pushing my emotions aside is not healing though and that has been discovered since my accident last week. Pretending all is fine is not healing. That is what I had been doing. That is abundantly clear in retrospect. Head junk started up big time!

Then I began looking back over the past year and saw a horrific pattern reemerge... Eating my emotions.

I did that a LOT after I got married, it was my coping mechanism, my comforter. I have fallen back into that mentality being alone now and it is not who I want to be. I am in charge of me....all of me and I need to remember I am worth feeling good. I am worth the effort and time to put into feeling good. Not for anyone else but for me.

Part of this process is becoming aware of all I am putting in my mouth. A portrait of my day and it certainly can reveal if I am eating to fuel my body or to feed my emotions.

The weekly Daily Eats post is a good place to begin. So without further babble here is a snapshot of yesterdays daily eats:

Breakfast is my usual and has been for a ling time.

Protein coffee.

Lunch is a new addiction combo I have come to LOVE.

Crisped cheese with avocado! Oh my! This could become a problem if I am not careful. Seriously.

It was chilly and being home I decided I needed to bake. I know I know, not a great idea. But I did anyway.

I made some cinnamon roll crescents. My kids love them. I was good though because I only ate 1! I will call that a victory. In the not so distant past I would have eaten at least 2 if not 3.

Dinner was good.

REALLY good! Steak and cheese off the roll with edamame.

I actually think I will be having another helping of this later today. I LOVE steak and cheese, love it on the roll, but it was pretty good just as is too so a better option and better fuel for my body with unnecessary excess carbs.

That is it. Not too bad of a day. WAY better than I have had and taking a photo before I eat regardless if I will post it anywhere really has be a huge help for me this past week and it is a necessary evil I will continue to help regain control.

Do you snap a pic of your food?

If you are trying to eat better do you think it is a helpful tool?

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Gift Anxiety

I absolutely love giving gift to those I care about.

That said I am not good at receiving gifts...

of any kind...

from anyone.

This past week has not been a great one at all.

I have been having issues with my washer and dryer periodically and then last Monday my dryer started making this unnerving sound.

So another new thing for me to figure out what to do now being on my own.

I figured first thing is to figure out if they are worth fixing so I put a message up on Facebook for input.

I got a text from new friends of mine and her husband came and looked them over briefly letting me know he was going to come back on the weekend to check them out more thoroughly. that is GREAT!

Tuesday I had to head out of town for work....then Wednesday this happened!

And my crazy life got a bit crazier.

Not a bad accident at all.

BUT has caused me some issues.

So totally forgot about my new friends coming over for dinner and the washer and dryer going to get pulled apart.

It turned out they were sick and could not get over. No biggie one thing I have gotten good at is rolling with whatever gets put in my way...for the most part.

So life moves on.

Then.

I get a message from another friend...letting me know they may be able to help.

AWESOME!

Sunday comes and he takes apart my dryer and fixes it! Just needed a bit of greasing and maintenance.  YES.

My washer is old...REALLY old.

I did not have much hope for it and have been pricing washers. They are crazy expensive!

After getting into the washer it looked like springs needed replacing so my friend was going to look up the parts and see if they were available, this looked good. Even if I could get another 6 months out of this that'd be great.

So why the title of Gift Anxiety?

Well no matter what it is I have such a hard time accepting gifts. I am unaccustomed to it. Even being married for more than 20 years, my ex hardly ever bought me anything. Ever.

I did the gifting, I mean they say you treat others the way you want to be treated, right? Well I did not want to be showered with gifts but a token of appreciation and something even small to show you care now and again I believe in and live, though did not receive that in return from him. After a while I started feeling like i just was not good enough, not worthy enough, nothing I did meant anything. So now when someone gives me a gift of any kind I have such a hard time accepting it.

Fast forward to Monday...I get a call.

Friend says "After some thinking, I just do not think the washer is worth fixing so I bought you one. I have it with me and am on my way, just wanted to make sure everyone is awake and dressed"

WHAT??!!

Major anxiety and panic attack followed.

Then tears.

More hyperventilating and lots of walking, trying to walk away the feelings.

More tears.

Even just writing this out is bringing tears to my eyes.

It is the most generous gift and I think the best washer I have ever had!

It is so fancy...quiet...awesome!

I am still in awe, not the thing I would have ever expected.

Yes I am feeling unworthy of such generous and amazing gift along with the people that have entered my life over the past couple of years. I am so very blessed and not completely certain why.

At every bumpy turn I have seen my Creators hand, right there helping me through hard times with the people that have come into my life, no matter if they are financial, material or emotional bumps. At every turn someone has been and is there for me.

At every change in my life I try to grow from it, to be a better person, no matter if those changes are good and positive or bad and negative. To take away something positive even from the worst of the worst a change I may experience is my goal. To grow in a positive way despite  negative change is a win in my book.

My friend asked to remain anonymous and I totally will respect his wishes. He is truly a humble, generous and faithful man that I am blessed to be able to call a friend.

My friend!

Will I ever get over not being able to handle accepting gifts? At this point in my journey I do not feel like I ever will feel like I am deserving of such kindness and generosity.

But I do know I will not go back to the way I was. I want to feel better about myself, the person I am, the person I was before I lost who I was in a long bad marriage.

Working on this:

Today I make the promise to work on me....the positive change.

Friday, December 16, 2016

Frigid Friday

It is a bit chilly this morning!

Pretty happy I am not working and can stay inside for most of the day.

I do have to venture out in a bit but with this...

I am waiting just a bit.

My work week got interrupted Wednesday morning when this happened:

Another vehicle plowed into me as I was making a right turn into my next stop.

Not the way I wanted to end a workweek early that is for sure!

I thought I was ok, but am pretty sore now.  Saw the doctor yesterday, so it is pain therapy, muscle relaxers and a deep tissue massage therapy in my daily routine for the next few weeks.

I was out of town working my southern part of my territory staying at my Fave hotel when I had to leave early too.

The view from my room that morning before I left. We had a dusting overnight and looked pretty in some of the areas I went that morning...before the collision.

I think my kitties know I am hurting.

They will not leave me alone. I have at least 1 on my lap or next to me at every moment.

I love how perceptive they are. Whenever any of us are not feeling well they seem to know it and hover, cuddling. Otherwise they are aloof and do not want anything to do with us.

If you are in any part of the frigid US be safe and stay inside as much as possible!

Are you a fan of the winter white stuff?

What are your favorite winter past times?

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Food On the Go

It is going to be crazy cold the next few days here.

Frigid.

Like Mr. Freeze cold!

And I am on the road for work. Yuk.

But it is what it is I am very thankful to have my job. It is a great job!

I miss it though being away from my kids, but they love it. It gives them a bit of a taste of being on their own. Though I just do not see them being roommates in the future. I do see them eventually becoming lifelong friends. I love my kids...can you tell? I am also pretty proud of them!

Being on the road definitely has its challenges. One of which is to eat healthy without having to pack huge amounts of food in a cooler. I have so much already I need to take with me when working out of the area.

It can be done though...you just have to look, and learn where to look.

Now onto my Daily Eats on the road.

I LOVE the new Gingerbread RTD Shake from GNC! Seriously! It was sooo good! I really hope they keep this one around too. I have been hooked on the Pumpkin Spice but this is just as yummy....like drinking a dessert for my breakfast! Have you seen or tried it? NO?! Go find it now!

Amazingly good stuff.

So I found this at Cumberland Farms...

Made for a descent lunch.

14g of protein...I will take it.

Dinner in the hotel.

So many choices! Most not good.

Instead I took a trip to the store before getting here and picked this up:

I am not a huge fan of frozen dinners but this actually impressed me a bit.

I bought shredded cheese too, I LOVE cheese so added more to it and was set.

21 g of protein! Under 300 calories! Yes I will definitely take it! It is high in sodium, main reason I am not a fan of the frozen dinners but not a bad choice otherwise.

Then at the store I also bought:

A new wine for me.

It was pretty good. Great way to end the night wile watching Transformers!

Thanks for stopping by!

What do you do when on the go or on the road?

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Snow Snow and More Snow

It was bound to happen living in New England, but I was really enjoying the nice mild winter we were having.

That seems to be gone, but only 96 more days until Spring! At least according to the calendar not necessarily the weather here.

My job is great in the aspect they promote safety first so we have built in bad weather time. Normally it would be quite stressful for me to wake and see the white stuff coming down knowing I had only 2 choices. 1 to brave the elements hoping to be safe on the roads or 2 stay home missing the pay I needed for working that day. The company promotes safety fist and given most of us drive as part of our job they encourage us to NOT go to work and have this awesome provision. So another day off with my lovely kiddos. I LOVE it!

We did eventually venture out in ti for a bit. Crazy amount of snow fell in such a relatively short amount of time!

The extra time also lends itself to me experimenting in the kitchen, which I did with leftovers.

If my boy had not been sick most of the previous week we would have been sledding at some point but with an upper respiratory thing just getting over it we were not going to take any chances, pretty sure we will have other opportunities to sled soon.

So we have turkey leftovers...quite a bit actually given I had made 2 in the past 2 weeks and the first one was just the 3 of us eating it. The second we had family over but still had quite a bit left over. So to keep things fresh I use it in recipes that I am trying out.

Turkey Spaghetti Squash Bake was created.

It was pretty tasty I will tell you. My kids enjoyed it as well even after my daughter asked what was for dinner and after hearing turkey groaned because we have been eating it most nights for almost 2 weeks. I think that is a win for me.

T’s Turkey Spaghetti Squash Bake

1T olive oil.
1 red pepper, diced
1/2 medium onion, chopped
4oz sliced mushrooms
1T minced garlic
2c cooked diced Turkey
6 oz Greek plain yogurt
1/2c poultry stock/broth
2 c cooked shredded spaghetti squash
1T basil
4 oz shredded mozzarella
2 oz parmesan, fresh grated

Heat oven to 360, spray baking dish with cooking spray and set aside.

Put olive oil in pan and heat on medium high.

Add pepper, onion and mushrooms to pan and saute . Add garlic, continue sautéing.

Add in Turkey, yogurt and in Stock or broth and cook for about 5 minutes.

Add in spaghetti squash and continue cooking 5 more minutes.

Pour into baking dish top with cheeses and bake for 20 to 25 minutes or until cheese is melted to your liking.

Take out of oven and allow to sit about 5 minutes.

Enjoy!

I roast a couple spaghetti squashes at the same time, then freeze them so I can just grab them when I am ready to use. For us putting 2 c in a bag is about what we will use at once, even then depending we may have leftovers with them.

I also made Quest Protein Bar cookies....but I decided to get a bit fancy.

A very good day indeed. But any day I get to spend time with my kids is a fantastic day in my book, no matter what else is going on.

Sunday, December 11, 2016

Cranberry and Turkey Oh MY!

Cold weather is here and showing no signs of leaving I am afraid.

I know I know it is winter in the North. BUT I already am missing my warmth.

With the chilly weather I just love getting into the kitchen. Well actually pretty much anytime of year I love getting into the kitchen, lets be honest here. =)

I made a beautiful turkey last weekend when my kiddos grandparents came over to visit and have dinner with us. I t was a HUGE turkey for us. 22 pounds of poultry.

Reinventing leftovers is a fun thing for me too. How about you?

This was a hit with my kids!

Turkey Cranberry Crescent Roll.

Cranberry and Turkey Crescent Ring

2 cans crescent rolls
6 oz shredded cheese of choice
1c vegetable of choice
2c cut up cooked Turkey
1/2 c cranberry sauce
1/2c chopped pecans

Heat oven to 375
Mix all ingredients except crescent rolls in a medium bowl. Set aside.

Unroll both cans of dough; separate into 8 rectangles. On ungreased large cookie sheet, arrange rectangles in ring so short sides of rectangles form a 5-inch circle in center. Dough will overlap.

Spoon the turkey filling on the half of each rectangle closest to center of ring.

Bring each dough rectangle up over filling, tucking dough under bottom layer of dough to secure it. Repeat around ring until entire filling is enclosed (some filling might show a little, this is totally fine).

Bake 20 to 25 minutes or until dough is golden brown and thoroughly baked.

Cool 5 to 10 minutes before cutting into serving slices.

Serve with extra cranberry sauce if you'd like.

What things do you make using leftover poultry?

Let me know what you think about this one if you decide to give it a try.

Monday, November 21, 2016

Insomnia

I get in these cycles where my eyes open around 2am and there is no going back to sleep!

I am in one of those cycles right now.

I love it and I hate it!

I hate it because it makes for an extremely long day...I am really tired by 8pm...right now it is ABSOLUTELY FREEZING at that time of the morning.

I love it because the house is really quiet...I can get personal studying done...I can write...I can catch up on some cleaning...I can cook.

Cooking is what I did yesterday after waking at 2am.

Playing with my new kitchen toy...a Triple Slow Cooker

I made several things, prepping for quick meal prep for the week.

I made Mexican shredded chicken, Apple Crisp and Pinto beans

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Along with a huge spaghetti squash.

Slow Cooker spaghetti Squash | ThriveDespiteChange.com

All the elements of multiple meals for the week.

I am looking forward to Wednesday. I am off for 5 days!

I get to focus on just being Mom and I so look forward to it.

Spending quality time with my kids, there is o better time spent than that to me.

I will also be in the kitchen a bit too, with them, teaching some cooking lessons and enjoying that bonding time. Oh how I miss those days being a daily routine.

They really grow up so quickly.

Life in itself changes at a moment.

Want to make the apple crisp?

It was really easy and extremely tasty!

T’s Slow Cooker Apple Crisp

4 small crisp tart apples cut into 1/2-inch-thick slices
1 t ground cinnamon
1/2 T ground nutmeg
1/3 c quick-cooking oats
1/4 c packed brown sugar(I use Truvia brand to reduce sugar)
2 T all-purpose flour (I use GF)
5 T cold butter
1/3 c chopped pecans
Extra Ground Cinnamon

Spray 1.5 -quart slow cooker with cooking spray. In large bag,  mix apples, nutmeg and cinnamon to coat. Place in slow cooker.
In medium bowl, mix oats, brown sugar, flour and butter with pastry blender or fork until crumbly. Stir in pecans and sprinkle with cinnamon. Pour crumb mixture over apples and evenly spread.
Cover; cook on Low heat setting 4 to 6 hours.

SlowCooker Apple Crisp | ThriveDespiteChange.com

SlowCooker Apple Crisp | ThriveDespiteChange.com

SlowCooker Apple Crisp | ThriveDespiteChange.com

SlowCooker Apple Crisp | ThriveDespiteChange.com

SlowCooker Apple Crisp | ThriveDespiteChange.com

SlowCooker Apple Crisp | ThriveDespiteChange.com

SlowCooker Apple Crisp | ThriveDespiteChange.com

Do you suffer from insomnia?

What do you do during the hours you can't sleep?