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Friday, December 18, 2015

Delayed Anger

Not such a good day here, but do hope yours is going well.

Some days are certainly way more difficult.

This past month has actually been one of them.

On the outside I have to put up a brave front...

Smile, when inside I am crying...

Say things are good, when all I want to do is scream and punch something....

someone

For my kids...

Inside I am fighting with so many things.

I am waiting on an appointment with a physiologist.

Needing to talk through this with someone.

Funny...part of having weight loss surgery was to save my marriage.

I certainly do not regret having it,

losing the weight feeling better about myself...

I am just having anger issues lately about the irony of the whole thing...

I lose 150 pounds and my ex decides to leave me after 21 years together.

Definitely dealing with delayed anger all that has happened over the past 20 months.

There are days I just want to run.

To leave this area so I do not have to run into or see my ex...

His friends...

His girlfriend...

No matter where I go now I am reminded of the fact he left me and we are no longer together.

He has a lot of good qualities...

He is a very caring person for one...

Just not when it came to being a husband to me.

I do not like how I am feeling...

I want my peace back.

I want my happiness back.

I know I am responsible for how I deal with things...

I am just having a hard time dealing with this.

I am feeling so much pain right now...

But...

This helps a little to remember...

Culmination...Delayed Anger? @ IamSucceeding.com

Until next time...

Trish

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