Friday, September 18, 2015

Almost Fall

Good morning my lovlies.

Been a rough week mentally here for me.

Yes still.

I just cannot seem to get out of my own way.

I know it shall pass but hate it.

This finally happened this week.

Got my boy in the kitchen to help prepare dinner.

In fact the kids will both be helping prepare dinner more often.

Teaching life skills are so important and with all the changes that were thrown upon us over the past year and a half some of those goals I had sort of got put on hold.

In fact cooking was not happening much at all.

Thus not the healthiest eating has been happening here in this house.

THAT I know is a contributor to the mental crud too.

So I am working on pulling in the reigns and getting back to my healthy lifestyle.

That is truly what it needs to be to be successful.

A change that is sustainable with your life.

Little by little I am making positive changes.

With Fall approaching that also means it is our Family Photo time again.

My dear friend Heather will be blessing us with her awesome photo talents taking them again this year.

THANK YOU Heather!!!!!

AT this moment I am not looking forward to being in front of the camera.

This last year I have just felt like I have not made any strides in my weight loss area and am finding myself struggling with the mental lack of confidence crud.

As time is passing I am really struggling with some aspects of being a single Mom.

I am not alone…

I have 2 of my 3 amazing children home with me and they truly are a joy and I just do not know what I would do without them.


I find myself having a hard time being “alone”.

My friends are married.

I feel like I do not belong anywhere.

I seem to be constantly surrounded with teenagers.

They are the ones single.

And of course these are my daughters friends and I am really only there as the adult keeping things in check.

I love being with my kids and their friends, do not misunderstand what I am trying to say.

I just hate and I mean hate being single.

BUT I also cannot..

No WILL NOT just settle for just anyone to NOT be single anymore.

I did that 23 years ago.

I settled.

I did not listen to my inner voice to walk away.

I felt at the time I could not ask for or expect anything or anyone better.

I thought “we” could work it out.

BUT it does take “we” and part of that “we” decided “we” were no longer worth fighting for.

I was not worth it.

Thought I had worked through all of this.

I guess not.

My faith coupled with my children and my closest friends have helped me so much.

For them I am eternally grateful and so happy they are in my life.

Focus on the positive and move forward.

That is all we can do.

One day at a time.

If you made it through my whining this far I thank you!

Now back to our regularly scheduled blogging…

I started this Blog journal way back when

To keep me accountable…

To share my journey…

To share recipes and exercise ideas…

To maybe hopefully inspire just one person to make healthier choices.

I hope you have an absolutely amazing weekend!

Until next time…keep smiling!!!


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