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Friday, April 10, 2015

Blahs

Good morning lovlies!

AAAh the weather here is blah

BUT

I am working on my outlook not being so bleak.

This weekends weather should be much better…

Warmer…

Looking forward to it!

A very sweet friend offered us an opportunity to get away this weekend…

I wish we had been able to go but other obligations prevented us from accepting the offer.

Brought tears to my eyes though to have such loving friends in our lives.

To think of us like that!

Some days I just wanna run.

Run away from here and go somewhere new.

Somewhere I do not see something…

Hear something…

Smell something…

that brings back memories of the part of my life that is now over.

Then I have reminders that even though my life is…has…changed I have such an amazing group of people in my life that mean so much to me.

That I would be running away from them too.

The saying:

“Change is inevitable…Growth is optional.”

Just runs rampant through my head so much lately.

Change has taken place, not by my choice…

The growth, the learning from it…

That is totally on me.

I have learned a lot and am still learning and growing from the experience.

Not something I would recommend by any means to anyone EVER…

Though looking for the positive…

even in a life changing experience as divorce.

I hate that word.

I hate all that surrounds it.

I hate all that it effects and the people it hurts.

It is not just me…

It is our children…

It is our family members…

It is our friends.

It gets a little easier each day…

Then I have a day where the pain is so raw it feels like it all just happened…

again…

Feelings of not being worthy of being loved…

Like I am trash that was thrown out…

used up and kicked to the curb.

God seems to know those times before I even do because it is on those days

that I get a call…

an email..

a text…

or a visit from one of my friends out of the blue and they just remind me of all that is good

that life continues

that I am loved

that it is ok to move on.

Each day certainly brings its own struggles and anxieties

but

each day I can find the strength to keep going

to keep smiling despite the desire to just curl up in a corner and cry

makes me stronger

brings me closer to healing

closer to really allowing myself to move on

and live again.

Today is a new day

One of which we have yet to see what it holds.

Hope your day is one filled with love and laughter.

Remember to hug those you love!

Until next time…do something that brings a smile to a friend!

Trish

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