No, not anymore.
Today 22 years ago I said I do to my soon to be ex-husband.
To say this past year has been hard would be a great understatement.
Our marriage certainly was not a storybook romance but our vows stated…
“For better or worse”
“In good times and bad”
I took those vows seriously.
I cannot speak for him, but I was not the one who left.
The one who cheated.
I also have a very strong religious conviction…
As did he when we first were married…
So at Matthew 5:31,32 it states the only grounds to divorce.
So where my conscience is clear to divorce him,
that does not help with the emotional turmoil I feel.
I have not just lost my husband but…
despite it all he was my best friend.
I know I am not the first to go through this.
I know we all handle things differently.
I know I have sooo many things to be thankful for in my life…
and I am.
I am so very thankful for people I have in my life.
my kids are awesome!
Some new that I have met with our move to a new area,
they have become dear to me.
Some that I have been able to reconnect through all of this from before I was married.
One thing I realized during this past 10 months is just how much I did not reach out to friends.
I spoke to no one about the things that upset me, it would have made things worse in my marriage.
I see the blessings in my life…
I am so very thankful for them.
A reminder to me:
Take things one day at a time.
Today my heart is broken.
I feel sadder than I think I ever have.
I will do as the above quote states though…
I will fake it until I make it!
And I WILL make it!!!
I truly hope your day today is a great one!
Until next time keep being amazing…