Friday, February 20, 2015

Happy Anniversary

No, not anymore.

Today 22 years ago I said I do to my soon to be ex-husband.

To say this past year has been hard would be a great understatement.

Our marriage certainly was not a storybook romance but our vows stated…

“For better or worse”

“In good times and bad”

I took those vows seriously.

I cannot speak for him, but I was not the one who left.

The one who cheated.

I also have a very strong religious conviction…

As did he when we first were married…

So at Matthew 5:31,32 it states the only grounds to divorce.

So where my conscience is clear to divorce him,

that does not help with the emotional turmoil I feel.

I have not just lost my husband but…

despite it all he was my best friend.

I know I am not the first to go through this.

I know we all handle things differently.

I know I have sooo many things to be thankful for in my life…

and I am.

I am so very thankful for people I have in my life.

My family…

my kids are awesome!

My friends…

Some new that I have met with our move to a new area,

they have become dear to me.

Some that I have been able to reconnect through all of this from before I was married.

One thing I realized during this past 10 months is just how much I did not reach out to friends.

I spoke to no one about the things that upset me, it would have made things worse in my marriage.

I see the blessings in my life…

I am so very thankful for them.

A reminder to me:

Just breathe!

Take things one day at a time.

Today my heart is broken.

I feel sadder than I think I ever have.

I will do as the above quote states though…

I will fake it until I make it!

And I WILL make it!!!

I truly hope your day today is a great one!

Until next time keep being amazing…



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