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Monday, April 23, 2012

BFF

I was good, feeling good…then I got REALLY sick! So much I ended up in the ER on Saturday in so much pain. After ruling out pneumonia…thankfully… it was determined I have a sever case of sinusitis. UGH! OK. I was sent home with a steroid to help open my breathe way and antibiotic for the infection. I am 3 days on meds and finally the pain is manageable.

We are moving on…

Today at Weight Watchers I weighed in and….

lost 3.6 pounds!

I was so surprised…happily so. I was prepared for a gain. It was ironic to me the meeting topic today was being our own BFF. I was yelling at myself in my head on the way to the meeting how stupid I was for not trying hard to keep track this past week…sick or not.

Well I apologized to me and promised I would work harder at not being so critical of my shortfalls and to just pick myself up and move on.

That is what I am working on. To be nice to myself and to stop the trash talking when I make a mistake. I certainly would not say the things I say to myself to anyone else when they goofed up so why do I do it to me? I am not perfect either.

Backing up a bit…

***I had something that concerned me a little and maybe someone in the WLS community can help me with this…***

With this sinusitis I was in a LOT of pain…I mean rolling around on the floor type of pain. Even though I took 3 Tylenol it barely touched the pain. At the ER they said I should have taken ibuprofen…a NO NO after surgery…instead of the Tylenol. I am susceptible to sinus infections…always have been….so my concern is there has got to be a pain med that would touch the pain that would not endanger harming me after surgery. I really really could use your input here and I will definitely be bringing this up to my doc next month but thought of you…the awesome online bariatric community that you are.

I was getting busy with spring cleaning here at the house…then got sick…and getting things ready for the day when I have surgery. Yes I am forward thinking positive here! =) Making “Mom only zones” in different areas of the kitchen and redoing things for ease. I was on a  good roll too. Bummer I will have to work on getting back in that mode again.

I just LOVE this idea!!!

There we go for an update. How about you? What’s new with you?

Until next time…

Trish

“Success is not final. Failure is not fatal. It’s the courage to keep going that counts.”~Winston Churchill

Monday, April 16, 2012

Holy Cow

Good morning all.

Looks like another great day here in Maine.

I slept in a bit, I know my body needs it because I have a natural internal alarm clock…always have. Up by 6AM at the latest. This morning though I woke at 9:30!! Holy cow! It was a good thing the kids are on school vacation this week. I however do feel a twinge better this morning. No doubt that extra shut eye has helped.

These past few nights I have been having dreams related to weight loss surgery! Crazy! The other night I dreamt I was at goal. What a feeling! Last night I dreamt something related to it as well…it is fading a bit now but it had to do about being in the hospital and it was all good. I did not have any dreams before…even when I had my actual surgery date. In some ways I feel more at ease with the whole idea. It is weird.

Being on weight watchers right now is a very good thing for me for a multitude of reasons. I have transitioned over to the SFT which gets me back to making proper choices. Eating fruits and vegetables, lean protein and fat free dairy. The biggest difference after surgery will be my protein. I am so used to focusing on veggies first but with a limited amount of food I will be able to eat the protein MUST come first….forever.

Because for a short time after canceling my surgery I spiraled for a bit. I need to work my way back. I know I can do it.

I had been drinking soda…already given it up, no biggie there for me.

I had a beer now and again with the Hubs…stopped, all done.

I used a straw…this by far is the hardest for me, but have stopped.

I had been eating out at fast food….this one is still a work in progress BUT focusing on SFT will help immensely here.

I have been drinking fluids with my meals…working on this one.

I bought and had enjoyed gum….no more. I really was not a big gum chewer anyway so we are good here.

I have been guzzling my water….oh this is so bad and I am working on slowing down and sipping all day.

I have stopped paying attention to eating slow…with three kids in the house this is also so hard but I am more aware and working on this again.

I stopped my pre-surgery exercises… I am getting back in the routine of them.

I am ever so slowly working this and I know I will do it. I am doing it!

I will be that person... A healthier version of me.

I will be filling out my victory list daily. Thank you Holly!!

As my blog title states… I Am Succeeding!

How was your weekend? Did you do anything exciting?

Until next time…

Trish

"Success is not final. Failure is not fatal. It's the courage to keep going that counts." Winston Churchill

Sunday, April 15, 2012

I Am NOT Blind!

Good morning friends. Yet another beautiful day outside and I feel like blech!

This too eventually will pass…right? Right!

Something I have been battling with since December was my internal feeling of failure…giving in….being defeated by having weight loss surgery. It is not that way at all though. It is simply a tool. A drastic, potentially dangerous tool I admit, but a tool none the less.

Am I weak for admitting I need this tool?

I thought so at one time.

Am I a failure for proceeding down this path of surgery?

I think not!

Will this be a cure to my obesity?

Ummm if I thought that I would be in such a place of denial! That I am not.

The initial weight loss is such an encouraging time. One to embrace and use to ones advantage. To take that strength and move more.

I realize now obesity is a disease in itself and I have tried curing it so many times on my own. I have not been able to so it is not a failure to accept another tool to help me conquer this battle.

I am also well aware that I need to work on reasons as to why I got this way. To work on my head. I am already doing that.

I am keenly aware of the risks of surgery…thus my panicking and cancelling my surgery back in December. This is a personal decision, one that I appreciate input but understand I am absolutely not going into this blind. I have researched this quite a bit and am continuing to do so. I certainly have seen many possible bad things that may happen after surgery. I also know obesity in itself is a risk daily. A simple fall can cause massive injuries, sometimes permanent ones. So either way really is a risk and that is how I see it.

Have a great Sunday all!

Until next time…

Trish

"Success is not final. Failure is not fatal. It's the courage to keep going is what counts." Winston Churchill

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Struggles

I read a VERY inspiring blog called “300 Pounds Down”. It is the journey of Holly and she is down 143 pounds so far and making great strides in moving forward. I was reading…as I said…the other day and she wrote THIS

Go and read it…I’ll wait …

She is amazing right? Did you see it? Her Victory List? I LOVE It!!! I loved it so much I messaged her asking permission to steal borrow this fantastic idea! She graciously agreed. Thank you Holly!!!

My plan is to print these puppies up and make a book out of it to carry with me. The beauty of this is I can change it as I change. Isn’t that awesome too!!!????

How encouraging this is…everything about it!

How about you? Well there is something about The Victory List that even just these past couple days has made a difference. Weird how that is Huh?

I’m lovin’ it all right! My dedication…the feeling of empowerment!

What about you? What are you lovin’ right now?

Until next time…

Trish

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Anchoring

Today's Weight Watcher topic was anchoring. Debbie said to:

Describe myself.

What are my strengths?

I am a caring person.

I am motivated.

I am an organizer.

I am not a quitter.

I am patient.

I am creative.

Tapping into my inner resources.

Translate my strengths into my weight loss efforts.

Ask for help. Tap those resources.

Anchoring helps keep you focused. What can it be? A ring or a bracelet. Something that can remind me what I am going this for.

We stayed for the power start meeting this week. The third one. This week we covered power plans.

I am off to make my plan.
What are your plans???
Until next time…
Trish

"Success is not final. Failure is not fatal. It's the courage to keep going is what counts." Winston Churchill