Oh wow. Did not see this coming!!! Ok I keep trying to push these feelings out of my head.
To ignore them.
I keep telling myself to not listen.
It's too overwhelming!!!
I don't want to go through with this.
I don't. :( the thought of telling Kevin just… I don't know.
I have disappointed him so many times with this weight loss game. He has been so supportive through this entire process. Even following this strict pre-op diet. The first time I've seen him be optimistic about me finally getting to a healthy weight in a long time.
My head is spinning. Tears won't stop. I feel like I am completely going crazy!!!!
I feel like I will disappoint everyone. Especially the most important people in my life.