Thursday, June 30, 2011

Nothing New

5  days since my last post…anything new? A little… Hubs is finally feeling better! Yeah! He even has a date to go back to work…next Tuesday. On the flip side we are still fighting the insurance with his short term disability claim. He was approved for the first month, so again now we are a month…no income. SIGH. Then on top of that frustration people at work have been talking smack we just found out. As if what Hubs does is any of their concern?

A friend let us know all the talk…see Hubs has a passion for photography…big time, but even with his depression initially he was not even interested in it…very concerning. So through speaking to his therapist she prescribed him to get involved with his photography…to engage his creativeness and focus on that to help him through this…he did…it has helped and in the process local newspaper has picked up his stories and photos…no pay. SO these people assume he is getting rich and on disability…saying things like “oh he cannot do that” and making a big deal out of this. Why do people have to be so negative and make such a fuss over things that do not concern them in the least.

Anyway it is just frustrating. So in other news, I am still waiting for my appointments to arrive for my next step in the WLS program. I think I meet with the dietician first, but we will see, I am going to a support meeting this Friday where I am hoping to meet more new people, both that have been through the surgery, to hear the good, bad and ugly as well as others contemplating the thought.

I have been experimenting with high protein shakes and am happy to say I have found several variations I like quite well, now to just run by the dietician when I see her to be sure they are indeed within the guidelines.

The other day when we went to the gym the pool was open!! The kids had a good time, me I did not go in, this time, though am thinking I might today as long as the storms stay away after our workout.

What is new on your journey?


Saturday, June 25, 2011


That is the main ingredient in this mornings shake.

I woke today with a vicious migraine and so was in bed until about 10:30 so only now at 11:00 am I having my breakfast. But it is a yummy one.

Raspberry Breakfast Shake

  • 1 scoop EAS Whey Protein Vanilla
  • 1c soy milk
  • 3/4c frozen raspberries
  • splash Torani Sugar Free Raspberry Syrup

Place all in blender…whirl, pour and enjoy!

16 ounces of pure yumminess!

It is really stormy here and not such a hot day but will still make the most of it. Later I am meeting a friend who is also considering WLS. I told her we could share information we have found and she is going to possibly be going with me to the support group next Friday.

How did you start your morning off?


Friday, June 24, 2011

Shake This Way

Breakfast was a hemp watermelon shake...

Nutiva Organic Hemp Protein

About 1 cup frozen watermelon

1c soy milk

Place in blender and whirl…enjoy

Lunch was another high protein shake

    • 1c soy milk
    • Nutiva Organic Hemp Protein
    • 2 strawberries
    • 2 handfuls fresh spinach
    • 1/2c frozen watermelon
    • 1/2c frozen blueberries
    • Splash Torani Raspberry Sugar-Free Syrup

again place all in blender and whirl until smooth and enjoy.

Dinner was...

2 mcdoubles, no buns and a parfait.

What was on your menu today?



Gloomy day will NOT get me gloomy. Hubs is agitated BUT feeling a bit better today. So good to see a smile on his face.

Getting back to the normal blogging here is a recap of yesterdays eats…

Breakfast was a strawberry protein shake.

  • 1scoop EAS Vanilla Whey Protein
  • 1c frozen strawberries
  • 1c soy milk

Lunch we went to our local hospital cafeteria and I got a salad…no photo though.

Dinner was pasta with some chicken, peppers and a Classico Roasted Red Pepper Alfredo sauce. It was very good, but again no photos…sorry, trying to get that back together because I really like being able to look back on it.

I am feeling pretty positive, that is a good thing and I am still researching…praying about…and continuing in the WLS program.


Thursday, June 23, 2011

Back And Forth

Tuesday I attended the New Patient Orientation at the Surgical Weight Loss Program. I did not learn a whole lot more than I already have found out through researching but was good to hear the particulars of this particular program.

To be totally honest I am not sure if I will go through with the surgery. I am conflicted really. I am going to go through the steps though because even just sitting in on the support group was amazing to hear the stories and they did not hold back, they told all the good…bad…ugly. There were people who had some complications, one lady wound up back in the hospital due to her intestines wrapping around her remainder of the stomach 22 times! Would she go through it all again…she emphatically said yes as did all the others there.

The nutritionist was very forthright as well in telling us there were 2 deaths due to complications in the surgeries as what they were.

The program is designed that I will meet with several people prior to ever meeting the surgeon and it was also said that about 20% of those in that class would not get surgery, either their decision or the teams determination that this would not be a good fit, so I am definitely staying in the program and using it as well as the tool it is. To continue to explore my options.

I literally am going moment to moment changing my mind on this. SO It is being kept close in prayer and I am following their recommendations for my track to surgery, knowing at the last minute I CAN change my mind. It will not hurt, all their recommendations are things that should be implemented in a healthy lifestyle anyway.


Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Time Is A Tickin’

It is just after noon on Tuesday. The day I have a new patient appointment and I am beginning to feel very anxious.

Am I doing the right thing? Should I just keep trying the way I have been and keep pushing? All sorts if emotions seem to be coming up.

All this after a 7am appointment with hubs for his meds. I think we are finally seeing some improvement!! He has had 2 good days in a tow now and we finally found a listening ear regarding his main medicine he takes. A few months back the insurance company no longer would cover his name rand and made him change to a generic. Ugh!! after the discussion this morning with his new doc we have added she concurs this absolutely could have been the cause of the depression escalation!!!!!! Oh I just wanna scream!!!

Anyway yesterday our primary doc finally was able to push through with the insurance the name brand med he had been on all these years without incident. My prayers are we are going to see the happy Hubs again real soon. We will meet later this week with his counselor and next Tuesday again with this new med management doc. As far as my WLS appointments we...I will know more after my appointment and support meeting.

For mow I am sitting relaxing with hubs at Borders until the time for my appointment at 2 and my kiddies are having fun with some friends making all sorts of crafts and making no bake treats.


Friday, June 17, 2011


Today I made positive changes.

  • I got to the gym.
  • I have had a protein shake for breakfast and after my workout.
  • I ate a high protein salad for lunch.
  • I am having another protein shake for dinner.

We all went to the gym actually which was great. I did 20 minutes slow training and then 10 minutes on the treadmill. I started to get a headache only only right side when I was on my next to last machine. I thought I was over them, I guess not. None the less it interfered with my last machine and my time on the treadmill…BUT I made it there and am putting it to go again on Monday.

It felt really good to get there and I need to remember that to get out my front door regularly.

I am using EAS 100% Whey Protein Vanilla as the protein source for my shakes. This morning I added half a frozen banana and 1c frozen strawberries to 1 c soymilk. After my workout my shake was just the protein and soymilk. For dinner it is going to be the protein mixed with some red dragon tea that is caffeine free that I am steeping right now. I am so bummed though because I just found out my favorite chai tea is NOT caffeine free!

I guess I need to try to find one that is. But I do however have some decaffeinated teas and coffees I will be using to mix with the protein powder.

I plan on getting on the scale on Monday and see how I have done with the regimen I am taking on, also it will give me a glimpse into what to expect if I am getting on the scale during my appointment on Tuesday. Not 100% sure what exactly to expect at this initial appointment. It is 2 hours long and the 2 hour support meeting after.

I also NEED to remember to measure myself, that is a big thing I keep forgetting to do.

I am currently watching my younger 2 kiddos wash our van…love watching them work together.


Tuesday, June 14, 2011

It Stopped Me Cold!

I have been researching and researching and researching all about WLS, the before and after's, the good, the bad, the ugly. The diet…before and after. What you will be giving up prior to and after surgery.

I came across something…something silly really in the big scheme of things…that made me really stop…think…do I want to even finish looking through and researching this option.

Do you want to know what stopped me…seriously?

Caffeine! YES, my coffee!!!!!

Will I? Can I? Do I want to give up my coffee?!

I mean I remember how miserable I was doing the 30 day vegan challenge…miserable! Can I do this? Again…just the eliminating caffeine part. Oh my! I sort of began to panic!

Then I regained myself…composed myself…talked to myself for about an hour. I CAN do this! I WILL do this! I WANT to do this! It is only caffeine! Do I need it? No not really and when I really sit and think about it why do I consume something that ultimately has the potential to control me?! I mean really!

Who is in control? Me? Or Food?

Obviously food has been in control of me for a long time or I would not be in the position I am now, right? So what a great first step in my progress to kick caffeine to the curb! I will no longer allow anyone or thing but ME to control my actions and decisions! (sounds good doesn’t it? Yeah I thought so too, but realistically I know this is going to be a hard uphill battle)

This is my first day with no coffee and at 8:25 I am feeling a headache…is it real or imagined? Either way my fight needs to begin today.

Here are the steps I am taking to prepare me…

  • no caffeine
  • no fast food
  • no soda
  • 1200 calories a day
  • 30 – 60 minutes exercise 3 times a week
  • focusing on protein first making sure I am getting at least 60g a day in

The countdown continues as my New Patient Orientation appointment is next Tuesday. Where I get the information from this particular WLS center. One thing I did find out is that there are only 3 surgeons doing WLS with robotic technology…2 are here in Bangor with this particular program and apparently this center is world renown.